Dear Deedee:
I hope that you have been enjoying your
permanent vacation from Earth. I think of you, flying around enjoying
the sights, enjoying the wind and the beauty in which now you walk...
being able to speak as loud as you want, being able to run and jump
and seat and stand and play... I think of you smiling at all times,
rolling your eyes when you find something absurd, your eyes trembling
a little when you find something amusing... I think of you enjoying
every flower, every sunrise, every sunset, every raindrop, every
trait of nature... I think of you convincing other angel kids that
the Wonderpets are the most awesome thing, that your secret identity
was being Pocahontas and that you know every Zdisney and VeggieTale
song by heart. You keep trying to convince the “Boss” that you
know just how to make communication with humans more effective, just
by networking and getting on Facebook, Skyping a bit and keeping
blogs. And you are certain that you had the best idea for an animated
cartoon, and you still think you can inspire something on someone so
it gets done...I think of your sassyness and cleverness, and I know
that everyone in Heaven must be having a ball whenever you are around
them, sprinkling glitter on everything “just because” you are
convinced glitter make everything prettier...
I know that your journey really began
when you had to leave us. This was the warmup to the greatest
adventure you would have... and I know you were so ready for it! With
all you did here on Earth in what seemed 5 short human years you
warmed up to all the core ideas that would shape your destiny. It is
true. It all has just begun. You are not just watching from afar, you
are scheming higher things of higher purpose... with touches of
glitter of course. Your will will inspire many deeds, and will open
many doors so it all gets done. You are making God proud, and you
make us proud. I know you are a busy bee, and in your infinite
timeline for being you will make many miracles happen... just as you
did before, but at a higher scale. I hope you will let us know when
you decide to lift the curtain so we can also enjoy your works of
art... I trust your inspiration will give us direction and purpose. I
believe in you, my angel and my personal rainbow... my bringer of joy
and possibilities... You showed us nothing is impossible, and nothing
is far fetched.
Knowing all this comes easy to our
minds... and it is the big patch that covers the deep hole in our
hearts... My angel, we are happy that you are happy and doing so many
things... but being without you has been a constant nightmare. We
love you so much, and we miss you so much... You departed to go to
the greatest college of them all... and left an empty nest in which
nothing can ever take your place... The halls within our hearts
display all pictures of you. We take comfort in all that was done, in
all you achieved, in all we achieved together... but that comfort is
fleeting when the realization of your warmth being absent hits us at
night... when there are no breathing sounds from you to cradle me to
sleep... when there is no single gesture in the dark that tells me
your yes or your no. We don't want to drag you down, we want you to
be happy and go on... It is just... hard... Very hard... And we hope
that now and then you can actually allow us to know you are here with
us... We know you are, but feeling your presence is so important to
us... It is all that is left until we all meet again for once and for
all.
Bring on your inspiration, love. Help
me make all promises come true... Help me do that big project that
you know was all because of you... Help us to keep on being strong,
keep on being your little sister's guardian angel... keep on being
our light in the dark...
We love you. We miss you. We believe in
all you are and all you do.
Beyond the end of time.
