Through the silent middle of the night
a distant sound echoes in the wind... Just one sound, just one
beautiful sound that said so many things at once. Whenever I heard it
I knew, yes you were awake. And I would go stay with you through the
night until the sun heralded the day. Whenever I heard it I knew that
yes you agreed and all was fine.
But now only treacherous memory remains
of such echo... and instead of bringing a comforting thought, it just
brings the embrace of loss... coldness... ghostly shadow that only
floats around me reaching out yet bringing no solace, no
consolation... Gentle tricks brings bliss as the dagger goes deeper
within. There is no stopping the bleeding that pours through the
heart that daily kisses the thought of you. There is no stopping the
numbness that wind tries to take away as it playfully caresses my
cheeks... There are no words that can stop the tears that my soul
keeps shedding each dusk and each dawn... as there is no light and no
shadow in which your lovely sound... oh simple sound... echoes... to
bring me home.
Saying I miss you falls short of all I
feel constantly, at all times, in all ways... Saying I wish you were
here with me falls short of what my heart feels such mercy would make
it whole. Saying I'll see you again can only comfort what reason and
logic must hold.
A world in black and white... A world
with dreams reaped from breath... A world that may be just enough and
just fair... but never perfect as perfect you made it... Yet I do
hold one last dream, that just the right dusk I shall open my eyes
and hold you again in my arms. Never to let go.
Never to let go...A gift from the Shadow. And so I'll keep my search for
Eldorado.It's just around the river bend...
Deedee became our star almost 5 months ago, shining bright and guiding our
path... But on Thursday night she somehow handed to us the star that she would
have gotten at Give Kids The World if she had made her Make a Wish trip
We are deeply touched that Deedee was granted a star, in memory of all she was... and because she would have been there anyway if things have been different. We are proud that her name is now among so many kids that have come to GKTW for their ultimate wish... She is already a star, but having a tangible symbol of what she is now will allow many to remember everything... and to keep fighting. This star is an idea of her, of her dreams, of everything she stood for.
Deedee, you will always be the flame that burn inside our hearts fueling inspiration and will. We love you deeper and more strongly each day, and we know that we will all be together one day... one beautiful day. Many hugs, baby girl.