We are no longer homeless. This past
weekend we finally moved out from the homeless sheler into a duplex
home where our family will be able to start a new life. Through the
help of special people we were able to get some furniture (big thanks
to the Mustard Seed). All has been very fast... But we did not fail
to notice details that let us know that you are here with us, and
this is a gift you gave us... As we found a toy chest for Kali, and
dragged it with us, we noticed it had a small booklet inside. As we
carried it with us Daddy took it out... The Tiny Seed. That was your
favorite story from the videos... You loved The Tiny Seed because it
made you think of your classes and of Mr. Farina. You loved how the
Tiny Seed found its place and bloomed. We thought it a big
coincidence... But then yesterday Daddy was cleaning out our
bedroom's furniture and in the headrest drawers he found some items
in between the drawers... A two small kids books: Hope for the
Flowers, and Hey Bug! Poems about Little Things. We know how much you
loved bugs, caterpillars, flowers... The whole thing was very special
to you... you were like a little druid when it came to nature. Then
Daddy also found another little thing: A beautiful rosary that was in
a tiny envelope... Butterflies, seeds, bugs, and a rosary... You are
obviously having fun, being happy and letting us know!
Thank you Deedee for trying your best
to give us some kind of peace of mind... Thank you for embracing our
broken hearts and filling them with your never-ending love. We are
truly blessed, always thank to you... You made us see what matters in
life... And you pushed us into a world that is unique... filled with
feeling, emotion, vibrant colors and true love. It has been eleven
months since the last time I lost myself into your eyes, since the
last time you moved your little fingers in my hands... It all has
been a blink. I still feel you warmth, and hear your breathing...
The question will always remain... Why
did you decide to leave us? Almost eleven months have passed, very
fast... very intense months of dramatic changes... yet the
singularity of loosing you is the only thing that brings us
neverending despair. We know it is selfish of us to want you so...
Forgive us for that... But how could us not want you around when you
were the flower that brought beauty and serenity and purpose and will
into our lives. With you it was not enough to dream about things...
we had to make it so. Such a lovely little tyrant whom we loved to
wow away making each day special and worth living. The first three
years of constant struggle it was our duty to make each day an
amazing adventure so you would want more... The last two years of
your life were a constant ode to discovery, growth, a constant search
for more knowledge, making you free of the constraints that your body
and society imposed by default... We enjoyed the best years of our
family with you. We were whole and happy with you. You made us proud
with everything you did, everything you showed the world, everything
you made possible. You showed us how to live a miracle and how to
make dreams happen. We miss your smizing eyes so much! Your little
sound of glee and approval... We miss everything physical... But we
know you walk with us... There are no doubts. And in another blink we
will be together again, all of us. Our life on Earth is such a little
time... Keep flying around us, keep sending us messages... keep
sharing your warmth. We need you, little diva...
Loving you, remembering you, honoring
you, and thanking you forever...
Mommy & Daddy
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